hard decision

Blogging is the best way for me to express my feelings and thoughts. It's like a soul mate of mine, sharing my happiness, sorrows, disappointment and of course my life. It is where i find myself being comforted, pampered, listened and understood.

Feeling so down. The heavy rain outside makes me feel even worst. I hate raining! Today, i have to make a hard decision. Well, my case might sound nothing for you but it means a lot to me.

This morning, I was told that my school's prom nite falls on the day my family go to KL for my sister's convocation. What a coinsidence. Since last year, i decided to go Prom Nite because this is my last semester in Swinburne University and i had never been to the Prom Nite before. My heart is struggling since this morning. I know i have to make a decision, a hard decision between family and friends. Well, i should have given up the Prom Nite since my family had already bought the air tickets. Somehow, i feel like this is not what i want. Yes, family is important for me! Friends, i would say the second place in my life, same goes to my boyfriend. Since my relationship with my boyfriend is stable, so i spend more time with family and friends.

When i told my mom about this, she seems like hoping me to go KL with them. Yes, i understand, mom, i really understand. It is a family trip. Not only attending my sister's convocation but will be celebrating my eldest sister's birthday. On the other hand, Prom Nite, sounds so lame but it means a lot to me this year. As i mentioned above, it's my last semester in uni. It is a promise between friends to get whole gang together and have fun. And i told my sister about this, same answer as my mom's. Without reason, i feel like crying. I dont know since when i become a different Audrey that i used to be.

It is not my decision to go KL. (sorry if i hurt u especially esther.. i havent made the decision now. It is 50-50 situation)

Well, after expressing myself, i feel better now. My brain is clear, it's time for me to think about it now!